#Vegan2016 – For the love of scotch!

How can a person that eats leaves, sticks, and a few berries gain 10 pounds??

Vinny Sal and I started this vegan diet nonsense six months ago. Our transition to this diet was to lose weight and become healthier individuals. I went to my doctor today. I am absolutely livid!

I gained 10 pounds in 6 months!!

I feel like I have been on a starvation diet for the last six months. We eat fresh food with minimal vegan processed food. Both of us have cut down on sugar and eat no dairy (except for birthdays and for our anniversary).

For the love of scotch!

Perhaps my dad was right. Eat pork, smoke, and drink until you die at the age of 52 of heart disease – at least enjoy life until your heart stops beating.

I know I should take my hands off the keyboard and CALM THE (BLEEP) DOWN!

Keep Calm and Drink Scotch

It’s been a bad week.

Last Saturday, my left leg was swollen and it felt ‘funny’ so I went to the emergency room (alone) just to get it checked out. Turns out I have a blood clot in my left thigh. A “DVT” they call it – deep vein thrombosis.

√  No, I have not been traveling. (After today, I am thinking of a vacation in France.)

√  No, I have not had cancer. (How many times do I have to answer this particular question – I’m sure some doctor along the way would have told me if I had cancer.)

√  No, I do not have diabetes. (But, I would LOVE some cake! Thank you.)

√  No, I do not smoke. In fact, I have signs posted at every exterior door of my house and cottage that read, NO SMOKING!!

√  No, I have not had any recent “lengthy” surgery. (Not unless you consider a colonoscopy a lengthy surgery, but I am pretty sure it went quickly since I was very well cleaned out.)

Blah, blah, blah…

Hormonal…. Just a tad bit

I received a rejection email this week from a job I really wanted. SNIFF!

My youngest son is graduating from high school. His last day of school was today. SNIFF! SNIFF!

Now, I just feeling really old and obese! SNIFF! SNIFF! SNIFF!

Bartender! Scotch. Neat, please and make it double!

#Vegan 2016 FOR THE LOVE OF SCOTCH!

I need a puppy, Vinny Sal!

A Page from My Prayer Journal

What am I supposed to be doing with my life?

I remember my Pastor Etzel of St. Mark’s Lutheran Church in Brooklyn, Michigan is telling our confirmation class that God has a plan for each one of us. I have been thinking a lot about Pastor Etzel’s words a lot since I lost my coveted job in 2009 and now that both my sons will be in college this fall, I wonder what God’s plan is for me now.

Since 2009, I have had a few jobs, but mostly I have been self-employed. I had attended college after high school, but I never completed my degree in business and journalism. I recently took a technical writing class this past winter with the notion of completing a degree in Professional Communications. At 55 years old, I contemplate whether I should continue this educational journey. A friend asked me at the time, “Okay, what you are planning on doing with that degree?” I guess suggesting at my age that it was a nice endeavor, but what for?

Perhaps this isn’t God’s plan for my life. Maybe it wasn’t His plan even back in 1980. College tuition is NOT cheap! Retirement is just around the corner. WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE?

Did I screw up Your plan for me, God?

Proverbs 16:9 says, “A man’s heart plans his way, But the Lord directs his steps.”

My heart says, “Never quit! Never give up!” But my pulse is getting slower and weaker as time marches on.

Since 2009, I have been lost. Now that my sons are in college, I feel even more lost. A couple of weeks ago I completed a predictive personality test to help determine if I fit a particular employment position. Here is a summary of my strongest behaviors:

Relatively quick to connect with others. She will build and leverage relationships to get work done.

Fluent, enthusiastic, frequent communicator – a motivator who pays attention to others points of view.

Focused on team cohesion, dynamics, and interpersonal relations.

Careful with rules, she’s precise, by the book fast-paced, and literal in interpreting rules, schedules, and results.

Detail-oriented and thorough, she works to ensure things don’t fall through the cracks and follows up to ensure they’re done properly and on time.

Driven to achieve operational efficiencies: thinks about what needs to be done and how it can be done as fast as possible while maintaining a high-quality outcome. Impatient with routines.

And there it is, the truth in the very last sentence. Impatient with routines.

Without a job I can be passionate about, and without my sons to daily focus my energies, I am looking at routines. God, I know when I defeat myself, I defeat Your plan for me. Yet, I am not sure what Your plan is for me.

Let God Be Your Guide

God, what are you enabling me to do?

I know God you don’t play favorites. I do believe You have given each of us our own spiritual gifts and talents. I know that Philippians 4:10 says, “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” And it isn’t that I can do all things through You because of my spiritual gifts and talents, but because of my relationship with You. Assume all my inadequacies Lord, and help me to understand Your Will and not my own for my life.

“But please listen to my prayer and my request. I am your servant, and you are the Lord my God. Hear this prayer that I am praying to you today.” 2 Chronicles 6:19

“If you ask me anything in my name, I will do it.” John 14:4

 

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